The Uselessness Of It All_6

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One of the most predominant purposes of man’s existence is his search for a deity.

The search for a divine being does not emerge from reasoning, but from the heart. It is the feeling of fear, orphanage, isolation and a hope of help from some kind of higher force that urge us to search for divinity.

Is there a way to prove the existence of god? One sought for god during one’s teenage years. One hoped that one would find him. One had by then developed a habit of praying. One sought but could not find god. One argued within oneself that there must be a cause for one’s existence. One asked within oneself : What is the cause? What is one’s relationship with god? What and where is that force? One got a reply – He is the creator, the originator, the architect, the designer, the builder, the inventor, the preserver

The reply did not satisfy. One felt one was losing something which one needed for one’s life. One became terrified and the prayers became more intense. One sought and begged for his help. But the more one prayed, the more apparent it became that he could not be heard. It was becoming obvious that there was no one to whom to address. That there was no god, one cried out with hopelessness, gloom, anguish and misery: Lord god, have mercy on me, save me, help me, guide me! No one had mercy on me, no one saved me, no one helped me, and no one guided me. One felt one’s life was beginning to end.

This did not happened once, but time and again for a considerable period of time.

Then it ended.

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